I really wanna try putting braces and go for lasik.

Because it's TGIF yesterday, i met up with laoshus to Hard Rock Cafe @ RWS for dinner, some booze and awesome music live band. The music was soooo loud that we are shouting in each other's ears. :'( It could have been better if the volume wasn't that loud. Anyway, it was a great time spent with them, and the staff there was super warm and friendly. Idk if it's because we told them that we are staff as well, and there's really a lot of privileges to enjoy being a staff! :)

We walked along the festive walk and sat down and had a great chit chat session! I really love spending time with them!!! They're really people whom I'll share everything with, and whom i know will be there for me no matter what. Thank you laoshus! :D

Next semester would be so different already. I feel like taking LOA to pursue a 6 months internship before I go on exchange, but things aren't as easy as it seems. Too many considerations running through my mind, and a lot of things are holding me back. I need some time to filter those unnecessary thoughts out! (: As I said, I guess I should learn how to manage my time better, such that I can spend more time alone/with myself while at the same time, hanging out with my great friends, achieve work requirements and music requirements!

Oh yes, speaking of which, I'm super glad that I passed my music theory test. I wasn't a perfect pitch person all along, and even relative pitch is difficult for me. Asking me to sing you a middle C without playing anything was almost "alien" to me, but I'm glad my hard work of playing "piano" on my iphone on my train rides everyday helped. I guess hearing is really something which can be trained. Oh yes, and there'll be a performance coming up as well! There's a few dates, and our crew is allocated to different dates, at different locations, but all of them on saturday evenings. Mine's on the 30th June, at Loyang Point, at 6+ pm. Do drop by if you're around the area or you're free alright! (: I'll be singing one solo, and one duet with Nicky! :D

My week ended on a high note this week, and I will be shifting tomorrow. I have so many thoughts lingering in my head for the longest time, and I don't know where should I start. I've been living in the West since I was a baby, and shifting to N-E area of SG makes me feel a little upset. All my close friends reside in the West and by shifting away, this would mean that I will have lesser time spent with them. I would also have to make extra effort to travel all the way back to the west to meet up with them. Lesser stayover sessions with my oreo clique and buddy too. There's just so many things to miss. Not only this, my tuition would also be affected, and my hair appts, etc.. It's just so troublesome! :(

But I've learnt to let go. When things have to happen, I can only face it positively. Back to the topic sentence for today, "don't let... the fear of the future rob the happiness of the present"

SO LET'S BE HAPPY! :)

It was my BFF's 21st B'day celebration last night so I rushed down straight after work with buddy. It was a pretty fun night, with no booze, and with the most no. of hours rest/sleep time! 10 hours in total. I think I broke the record HAHAHA. i think the rest were feeling all sleepy in the afternoon when I started getting high on my own during lunch when we ordered pastamania in. Overall, it was a simple cozy night with not too many guests :)

I did a good deed though. I saw this injured dog with its back (blood and flesh) exposed and I was guessing that it might have just got into a dog fight with other dogs.. I was so scared that it was hungry and thirsty, that I quickly went to peel off all the chicken wings' skin and washed it thoroughly before feeding it. My heart actually ached whenever the dog comes close to me, and I could see its blood oozing it... Ouch. Was so tempted to call some animals' activists organization/SPCA but I was worried that they might put it to sleep in a very unethical way, and even if they don't, by the time they arrived would be the next day already.

This incident actually made me want to do something for these poor animals. I want to join the animal activists club and I will donate yearly to these organizations to support these animals. Too often, people are only concerned about our counterparts (the disabled/yellow ribbon etc) and often neglect the weak and helpless animals which also need our help. The least I could do was to provide the minimal and I really wish the wound on its back recover soon. :'( Went to check on the dog in the morning but it was nowhere to be seen. God bless this dog please. :(

I feel so weak and helpless whenever I encounter such things. I felt so bad not being able to do more. How I wish I was a vet at that moment and I could do something to help the dog feel better :'(

Everyday is indeed an experience.

The feeling is like driving on a highway with no ends to be seen, and not knowing where exactly I am heading.

This is what I am feeling now. Insecure, lonely and worried.

Clock ticking away, water rushing down the pipes and the refrigerator's sound..

Tranquility.

It kills.

I never liked being alone. Loneliness, upset, probing too much basically sum up my current emotion now. What makes things worse is that I can no longer voice them out as freely as I can anymore. I can't find anyone suitable to share these things with because nobody would understand. No sense of belonging. Can you all know what I am actually feeling now? Soon, i'll be shifting house again. For the better or worse, I don't know. I just know that I don't like it, I don't like of not having a permanent place to live in. I just felt like a nomad. I lost my sense of belonging in this world, I lost the confidence I once had, I lost everything just like.... that.

Am I really just a failure in life? When I see my peers doing so well in their fields, I truly felt happy for them, but after that when I reflected, I started pressuring myself and questioning myself why can't I be like them? I know it's hard to be good at everything, but I just can't find any niche areas/fields that I am good in. Can somebody please tell me where am I good at? Other than talking lame things, wasting my life away, and using my brain cells to brood over these kind of things don't make me feel good. I know I have to start pulling myself up again, and to the starting point, to start all over again. Right now, my situation is very much like a disabled person not having a helping stick. I am just not capable.

Tears start rolling down my cheeks, but who truly cares?